Daddy

Once again I was confused by this poem. It was obvious to me that the narrator was a girl and she was talking about her daddy. But I was still confused because at first I thought she hated her dad and was glad he was dead because she seems to have a lot of anger towards him, but then later on in the poem it says, "At twenty I tried to die And get back, back, back to you". After reading the poem a couple more times I think the narrator is just mourning through the pain of her lost father. It's not that she hated him, she hated his job as a Nazi, which is why he was killed. So now that he is gone, she misses him.